Tuesday, October 6, 2015

Random Update

Hi, I'm alive. Kind of. Okay so basically 3 months ago I helped to open a restaurant and its been so busy and crazy and hectic and out of control that I only lived and breathed for the restaurant. Dramatic but true. Like I never saw my family, friends outside of work and I stopped doing the things that I loved. I met a nice guy but he was 31 and scared me away because he was so nice. Then I started sleeping with one of my coworkers and fell in love with him and had him shatter my heart into ten billion pieces. That actually happened 3 weeks ago. And now I have to see him at work constantly, but I'm doing well. I've lost about 20 pounds which is crazy like I can't even believe it. I don't know if it was from being at work constantly and not eating crap and candy anymore or what the deal is but it works for me! And I've started drinking. But I'm on track to getting my life back together I promise, ish. I've just started talking to someone new and he's super super super amazing. I'm skeptical because of the last guy but here we go! Maybe it's a little early but it's really nice. I'm struggling in school of course. I'm making amazing money at work. And I have a lot of fun things planned for the future. Ashley and I are going to see Sam Hunt in Vegas in 2 months. My cousin is having a baby!!! Oh my god I'm so excited. Her baby shower is in 2 weeks. But anyways I'm gonna make a post maybe tomorrow? Or Thursday on some personal things. MmmMmm I need to make a blog post about my surgery now that I'm almost 2 years post op. Ahhh! Anyways. Yeah. Sorry I suck. Oh and one of the other reasons I wasn't posting was because my hard drive on my laptop crashed. Back in I believe June? Well it didn't crash. Apple's test to see how it was running didn't finish so it said my computer was crashed but it was actually fine! So I got my laptop back :))
This was a 8.5 mile hike I did while super
duper hungover :)
This was after a party of 25 for a man's
surprise 75th birthday party at work

Wednesday, June 3, 2015

Update

I suck, I know. I always say to myself, "Okay you're baking this today so take photos and blog about it". Well I take some photos and either things don't turn out how I'd like or I don't have good photos. I don't know. I have an excuse for everything. Anyways. Little update for ya'll who may or may not care, I've been doing a lot and not a whole lot. I had my 1 year post op since my breast reduction. And I filmed a video on it. But I think I'm going to re-do it and actually write up a bunch of topics I want to discuss about it. I was all over the place and kept going back and forth on what I was talking about and I was worried someone was gonna walk in my house and then my camera died. So. Much. Drama. I did my graduation ceremony for my pastry and baking certificate. I quit my job. I got a new job a month later; that was a painful month. I found out I only have one more semester to finish and I'll get my AA in psychology. I had tonsillitis :(. I went to a concert. And I turned 22 since I posted last. Wow I suck. It's been 6 months. Okay wow. If you could see my drafts for this blog you'd be amazed/confused. Like why do I have 20+ posts that are basically done but not posted? I don't know either. Life's confusing. Anyways, here's what I've been doing.

<- Me and my best friend at the concert. The concert was all a part of my birthday present from my co-pilot/best friend/boyfriend. We went out to a wildlife place and got to see giraffes, cheetahs, rhinos. And then a couple months later got to go to the Kenny Chesney concert. I got my face painted too. :)




Fun side note. I had tonsillitis the weekend of the concert. The medication I had to take had super fun side effects. Like: headaches, fatigue, stomach aches, hearing loss, and so much more. And since it was antibiotics, I couldn't drink. Wooooo. But a woman in line at the snack bar bought me chicken strips and french fries so that was fun. And after the concert I thought it made more sense to walk to a location then call Uber because the rates were gonna be so high at the stadium plus all the traffic. We ended up walking 2 miles and we were nowhere near an actual place we could be picked up. My feet were blistered and bloodied and we were tired then we saw a Taco Bell and called an Uber. $40 and a 4 minute ride later we got to our hotel. 

I also started trying to date again. Which was weird. Still is weird. Went on a couple dates with a couple different guys. One guy was really nice but didn't seem interested. The other seemed really nice and fun but turned out to be an ass. Basically I found out dating is super awkward. After one date I really had to pee but the restaurant was closing and I didn't wanna run to the bathroom before we left and I really had no clue how to get back home without GPS. And when I say I had to pee I mean I thought I was going to pee my pants it was horrible. Luckily after driving for 20 minutes and being too stubborn to use my phone navigation I found a Safeway and took a selfie before going home.  

I went to the beach with my parents on Valentine's day since I'm extremely single. And who passes up a trip to the beach and sandwiches and taffy? Not me. We went to a local deli and got sandwiches and lemonade and then drove out to the coast with my dog. Of course every beach was at capacity until we drove out further and hung out at this one. It had really cool tide pools but the beach wasn't sandy it was more like tiny rocks so my feet were raw at the end of the day. Then we stopped and got salt water taffy on the way home and I didn't feel like a single loser, instead I was a 22 year old third wheeling it with her parents. :)



 And here we have me being an ass and not leaving work when I was clocked out because who knows.  This is the lovely job I quit unexpectedly. Which sucked because I put in my notice because I wasn't happy but I didn't have another job lined up. I found one applied, interviewed and they had me come in for a "shadow day". Worst. Experience. Ever. I've only had a couple jobs. I was an assistant soccer coach, cashier at a candy store, and associate at Panera. And I've had a million interviews. But man. This place was horrible. I won't name what the place was or where but WOW. Let's just say I wanted to leave a few minutes after arriving and I actually told the manager I wanted to go home so I left halfway into my shift and never looked back. It's a funny story to tell now but my God it was bad. 
 Here's me and my cousin at the Giant's game. This is actually the night before I put in my notice at work. But we took the ferry into the city, got a little drunk, ate chicken strips and cotton candy. She fell asleep on the ferry home and we ended up getting back around 1:30. And I had to be up for work at 4 am. Guess who didn't fall asleep until after 2? If you guessed me, you are correct!

 Some nights you just feel like buying Four Lokos and getting drunk on your couch, getting into an argument and then having your dad drive you and your best friend to In N Out. I'm pretty sure we wanted to watch a movie but ended up watching Chopped or Master Chef all night. I don't know why we wanted to drink and get really drunk that night but we went to like 4 different stores to get alcohol and almost walked to Target to buy my sister slippers. Thank god we didn't because it was really late and we were really drunk and Target doesn't sell slippers in April.





Here are some cupcakes and a cake I baked for a bridal shower for a family friend. I still gotta work on my cake decorating skills. And my social skills. I like working behind the scenes, not the business part. Like I can sit at a consultation and find out what the person wants and how many and what date. But I am not as strong at selling my product or discussing price. Soooo I brought my dad to set things up and pep talk me through it all. It was a cool but really stressful experience. I forgot how difficult it was transporting a cake and then not knowing what the environment will be at the actual event. I destroyed my kitchen and mental health for a couple days but it was easily fixed by a million loads in the dishwasher and oversleeping the next few days. I made 40 cupcakes, 10 chocolate, 10 vanilla, 10 strawberry, and 10 lemon blueberry. And then I made a 6 inch chocolate and vanilla cake on top. Everything was edible except the gold ribbon. I made white chocolate plastic roses and white chocolate starfish. Only bad part was, the table was super unstable and the cake stand was too. The top cake was super heavy and basically if someone ran into the table the cake was going down. At this point my motto is "Once I'm paid and out the door it's not my problem" and I told the woman the situation so I didn't look like a jerk of course. Then I got to go home to a destroyed kitchen I had to clean. Awesome. But that's why we charge so much as at home bakers right?!


Friday, January 2, 2015

365 Journal Entries

I found this link on tumblr today, Here! , and I liked the idea of posting one entry a day, for a year. I'm already posting a selfie a day on my tumblr so I figured this would be a nice idea too. I want this year to be great and lovely and wonderful. I want to document all of it to look back on because I have a good feeling about it. Soooooo I'm putting Day 1 and Two right here today to begin!

1. Something seemingly out of reach
Something that feels out of reach is my future, like knowing what I want to do. And true happiness, being 100% comfortable with myself and loving what I'm doing. I feel like since I finished my pastry and baking certificate and deciding to go back to school for psych I just haven't decided what I want to do and even though I'm 21 about to be 22 I feel some sense of urgency and panic to know already. I feel like the answers are at my fingertips but I just can't see them yet.

2. Your idea of a perfect day
My perfect day would be getting up and not really having to get ready and going out to the beach. Stinson beach and just tanning and playing in the water all afternoon. Getting a really good burger and fries with a Coke or a milkshake. Laughing until my face hurts. Then playing nice music on the drive home and showering and going to a nice little farmers market or dinner in a cute strappy sundress with a nice golden tan. All the while I'm holding someones hand and its warm but not too warm to where we are sweaty and can't be near each other. Then hopping into a nice warm bed with new sheets. That sounds like a perfect day to me. 

Hello, three years later

Weeks after my last post my world was turned upside down, this will be explained in a future blogpost. Since then I've left jobs, gotten...